Like Walking on Jello
I keep feeling wobbly. As I set out on this journey into the unknown. Dreams are unfolding which is such a gift and yet, it is so scary to be in uncharted territory. In fourth grade I turned in a piece of writing and the assistant teacher told me that I had misspelled 'desert'. But she was laughing at the image of walking across the 'dessert'. I feel like I'm walking across the dessert right now. New job that I'm four months into but still feels new as I do each event in this first year. Already moved once and had not even had a chance to fully unpack before I was offered the opportunity to buy a home through the Land Trust of Sonoma County. It's taking some time because it's a new home still under construction.
Sometimes I let myself feel the excitement but mostly I am still in disbelief and overwhelmed by the journey called Escrow. I am alone in this and that makes it extra wiggly jiggly. Sometimes I feel like I'm on solid ground but then the "ground" under me starts to roll around like shock waves through jello.
I suppose I'm building solid ground but the unknown calls to the brave people who know there is more beyond what they know, even if they can't see it. So here is to trusting in the next right thing. Step by step, even when you feel wobbly.
Sometimes I wonder if I was born in the right time... I long for a bygone era and yet I dream of a future that holds the best of technology mixed with the “old ways” that are so much gentler on us and the earth.